In the end of January 2010, my grandmother passed away. I wrote a song "Be Set Free" as she was laying in the hospital with no hope of returning to us. Last Saturday we said our goodbyes and laid her to the ground. Ashes to ashes, dust to dust... And I felt I was not yet finished living through all my emotions, that there were parts of me that still haven't quite realized what has happened. At times it seems like I'm drifting through a surreal fog. Letting go is never easy. Dying is the end of one chapter but it is also the beginning of another. Life on earth is simply a test we must pass.
The inspiration for "Requiem for Aurora" came to me from the second name of my grandmother: Aurora. The name is of Latin origin, meaning "dawn". It seemed to hold in the most precious thought, the salvation of a soul, it's journey from earth to the infinite light - and the composition wrote itself. I was just an instrument, as I always am. Music helps me deal with emotions of many sorts, and in this time of loss, it has helped me more than perhaps anything else. Rest in peace, Helvi Aurora - and above all, be with God.
Showing posts with label nature. Show all posts
Showing posts with label nature. Show all posts
2/09/2010
8/25/2009
Nature Boy's Tale
It's been a very long time since I have updated this blog. So many songs ago it's shameful.
I've also been away on holiday. It's always great to get out of the city for a week or two. As an urban person, there is no greater joy than to dig my fingers to the ground and do some gardening. You miss the connection with nature when you're surrounded by concrete.
It feels like home when I go to our house on the countryside, because once upon a time it was my actual home - before that my grandparent's home. Alot of history there. The house has been unoccupied since my mother moved out, so now it serves the purpose of a summerhouse. Because of several things that happened there I kept my distance for some years, barely visiting or spending time there. My current home is located few hundred kilometres away in Helsinki, so it's not often that I find myself there. But this year I've felt at peace with everything and I've already visited two three times. There is nothing better than to sit outside reading a book, when the nature is all around and the warm breeze passes over you. It's like a slice of heaven.
Though not always as I found out on my first trip. I was a bit too enthusiastic on the gardening part and like someone who's accustomed to city life, I did everything wrong. I managed to pull a muscle from my back and the pain was unbelievable. I wasn't able to sit for weeks which also partly explains why I haven't been updating much. I simply was not able to do anything, though against all reason I tried which only prolonged the process of healing.
Photo: Kimmo
I've also been away on holiday. It's always great to get out of the city for a week or two. As an urban person, there is no greater joy than to dig my fingers to the ground and do some gardening. You miss the connection with nature when you're surrounded by concrete.
It feels like home when I go to our house on the countryside, because once upon a time it was my actual home - before that my grandparent's home. Alot of history there. The house has been unoccupied since my mother moved out, so now it serves the purpose of a summerhouse. Because of several things that happened there I kept my distance for some years, barely visiting or spending time there. My current home is located few hundred kilometres away in Helsinki, so it's not often that I find myself there. But this year I've felt at peace with everything and I've already visited two three times. There is nothing better than to sit outside reading a book, when the nature is all around and the warm breeze passes over you. It's like a slice of heaven.
Though not always as I found out on my first trip. I was a bit too enthusiastic on the gardening part and like someone who's accustomed to city life, I did everything wrong. I managed to pull a muscle from my back and the pain was unbelievable. I wasn't able to sit for weeks which also partly explains why I haven't been updating much. I simply was not able to do anything, though against all reason I tried which only prolonged the process of healing.
Photo: Kimmo
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